ladies....

i've seen desperation
ugly and bare in jealous eyes
i've seen more sneakiness that i care to see again
i've watched girls with divided personalities that rival a schizophrenic depending on their company
and my heart is breaking
i have ranted and i have raved
about honesty
anything you say about a person you should be willing to say to their face
but i have quite a long list of things that me and Jesus need to work on
so i'm going to try to focus on that
and not on you


please let God love on you
let him show you who you are and live in that
do not find your identity in your friends, boyfriends, job, music or clothes
cause i promise they will let you down


i wish you could have it all
i really do
so that you could see when you have your dream wardrobe, the popular boyfriend, all of the friends and the reputation you gain from the places you go and the things you do, that it does not satisfy
that it is empty and fleeting
it does not make you happy
and it does not save your soul
when you stand in front of your King he will not take these into account


i wish you could lose it all
i wish you could have people talk about you, know things you wish they didn't, i wish you have to go out in sweatpants and greasy hair, i wish you have to sit in every night
and i wish you find joy in those things
because you know they have no dent on your character


when you put Jesus first, everything is a blessing....and you will be able to be thankful and find joy in it no matter how long or short it lasts or how it ends or begins and you will not hold on to it tightly because you recognise that it isn't yours and you won't have it in the end...


Get to know your Masters voice..so that when things of this world call you, you do not follow
"...and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name...he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him cause they know his voice. But they will never follow a stranger; in fact they will run away from him because they do not recognize a strangers voice...."
John10v3-5


God is so beautiful to me