Fellowship of the Unashamed - Anon

I am part of the "Fellowship of the Unashamed."
The die has been cast.
I have stepped over the line.
The decision has been made.
I am a disciple of Jesus Christ.
I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still.
My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure.
I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need pre-eminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity.
I now live by presence, lean by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.
My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my Guide reliable, my mission clear.
I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed.
I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I am a disciple of Jesus Christ.
I must go until Heaven returns, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He comes.
And when He comes to get His own, He will have no problem recognizing me.
My colours will be clear.

psalm 46

"be still and know that i am God"


this took on a whole knew meaning for me today
go read psalm 46
go listen to 'be still' by the fray
God has been trying to get me to focus on this all day, 
all week actually
psalm46v10 psalm46v10
and i've been ignoring it
i ruined dinner tonight, spent ages making a lasagne and then dropped it
always busy, never stop except to sleep a little
and i am absolutely loving every minute of this season
its been so long since i was busy
busy doing things i love and growing and sharing
but today i realised that all these things are going on and i am trying to control it all
and i can't
because i know in my heart that God is God..i am not
"be still and know that i am God"
"sit still for one minute, quiet your mind, and remember that I am sovereign"
surrender
GIVE IT UP
but i didn't want to 
to much to do, i'll have my Jesus time before bed and we'll talk then
then i get a text, telling me to listen to a song called be still by the fray..
haha point taken




my dissertation, my projects, my placement revolve around him..
he does not revolve around them
he is the centre
he is God


when things are really hectic you might not have time to sit and ponder but just re-align your thinking
when you feel overwhelmed know that he is God
listen to the language of heaven that will whisper peace and hope to your heart

phil4v7

"and the peace of God, 

which transcends all understanding, 

will guard your hearts and your minds

in Jesus Christ.."

heaven is my home

Matthew6v19-21
"do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal
But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy and where thieves do not break in an steal
for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.."


what you spend your money on, that is what holds you
what holds you, moulds you
so i stopped buying clothes..
my friends are getting married next week, so i've made a dress for it instead, and the 50 quid i would have spent on an outfit goes in savings for a halfway home


i bought clothes because i wanted to look good, i wanted people to like me and i always have thought that people were my friend because i look ok..
it was about acceptance


so the learning behind this all is two fold
firstly, if people only like me because of what i wear...then im not interested in being their friend
secondly, these clothes mean nothing to Jesus..
for a while i really wanted an iphone...i don't know why cause i'm dire with technology..but i did.
and i'm really stuck in Galations at the minute..God's just keeping me there, can't stop reading it!but Gal2v20
"i no longer live, but Christ lives in me..."
i couldn't help but think that if Jesus was here today, i don't think he would have an iphone..he probably would have a nokia 3310. as long as he could use it to connect with people i don't think he would care


some people say "you can live a porche lifestyle if you can give a porche lifestyle.."
so like if you can spend that much on a car you need to be able to give that much as well
but maybe if you could, you should give the amount of two porches and have a second hand ford fiesta?
you can't take a porche to heaven
there will be something much better there anyway!


whats the point of having nice clothes and a fast car and an 46 inch tv?
one day your gonna die and go to heaven and Gods gonna ask, what did you do for my kingdom?
i work with young people who have sticky fingers, and i've had to learn that if they nick a tenner or my phone, or laptop..that its not the end of the world.
those things don't give me purpose in life
i would rather they did steal my phone and then i could forgive and love them anyway and show them a little glimpse of Jesus
than hide all of my possessions from them and have them think i don't trust them or love them
showing Jesus to a young person with out hope...thats my purpose


what's more important?
this world or the next?


"money is just something you have incase you don't die tomorrow"
give more than you can afford to and live in faith
allow God to do a miracle
he has promised to provide for you

repeat...

"God wrecked my heart for him...."
absolutely crushed it
and i thank him every day for it
he ruined alcohol for me
spending money on clothes has lost its appeal
i'm waiting for heaven and i cant take a suitcase
nights out are hilarious, if you know my friends...
but only as a treat...can't hack the pace
i spend nights in and thats ok
i need Jesus time after a day with the general public
i've lost a lot of friends
its hard, but i trust God completely cause i've gained several keepers
i'm not willing to share my heart with anyone yet, no one compares to my King..
single for Jesus....seriously

so in short, God not only wrecked my heart but my life....

HALLELUJAH
it wasn't mine anyway




this is an old blog from last august..but just absolutely where my heart is right now

jeremiah29v11

the greatest fear is the fear of the unknown
in fact i think most fears are based on not knowing, i am terrified of heights because i cannot KNOW that i won't fall, i hate people touching my neck because i cannot know that they are not going to strangle me
people live every day in fear
young people who steal and hurt
they're afraid they won't have enough money
stab or be stabbed
students who are terrified they're going to be alone
somedays i get scared i'll be single for the rest of my life
these things are unknown to us
but what we do know, is the author of time
the job, the relationship, tomorrow, next year
he has a plan
you don't need to fear or plan or panic
just have faith, the size of a mustard seed
i might never get married, but i'll never be alone
i can trust that being single will bring me greater joy, bring me closer to Jesus if its what happens
"for God so loved the world that he gave his only son"
he gave everything for you, he's not gonna mess that up
it might not look like what the world counts as successful
but it will bring greater joy and life in abundance
walk in freedom not fear

"you came near when i called and you said "do not fear""
lamentations3v24

just what i'm learning

emotions are based on what your believe about a situation..

if you feel overwhelmed, you believe that the situation is to much for you to handle..

but you need to find out the truth

"...God is faithful...he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. 

But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it..."

1corinth10v15

so the thought that you cannot handle it is a LIE..the truth is that God will never give you too much and thats what you need to base your feelings on

if you feel sad because you feel alone

"...i will never leave you nor forsake you.."

hebrews3v15

if you feel worried you don't believe that God is going to look after you
read Job 38...he is MUCH more capable than you realise

if you dont know where your future is

"...for i know the plans i have for you...declares the Lord..plans to prosper you and not to harm you"

jeremiah 29v11

negative emotions are not from God...you need to find the truth..believe it..and your actions and then emotions will follow..

if you feel hopeless, your actions will reflect that and you will believe that there is nothing good for you and therefore that God is not good..which isn't the truth

if you feel ugly and worthless you will believe that God feels that too...its a LIE..the truth is that you were fearfully and wonderfully made (psalm 139v14) and God has good things for you (luke11v13)

find the truth...base your identity, and actions on that.

read your bible

know that your emotions are subject to your beliefs


connect with people..send an email
share! good or bad...let light into dark places
soph_02@hotmail.co.uk

next to me

You won’t find him drinking at the table
Rolling dice and staying out til 3
You won’t ever find him being unfaithful
You will find you will find him next to me
You won’t find him trying to change the devil
For money fame power out of grief
You won’t ever find him where the rest go
You will find him find him next to me

You will find him you’ll find him next to me

When the end has come and buildings falling down fast
When we spoilt the land and dried up all the sea
When everyone’s lost their head all around us
You will find him you’ll find him next to me 
Never in my life have i met someone like him
I’m blown away by his love for me
If you ever wonder where it is you’ll find him
You will find him you will find him next to me

When the moneys spent and all my friends have vanished
And I can’t seem to find no help or love for free
I know there’s no need for me to panic
Cause I’ll find him I’ll find him next to me 

When the skies are grey and all the doors are closing 
And the rising pressure makes it hard to breathe
All i need is a helping hand to stop the tears from 
falling
I will find him will find him next to me

Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
Next to me ooooh
You will find him you’ll find him next to me