neighbours are kicking right off.

got woken up by next door having a row in the garden....

i hate being content. i think its one of satan's biggest weapons...being comfortable..
you can be content in growth, yea...
but complacency
where you're like; i am doing ok. i know there's alot more i could be doing, but there's also alot less; i am good.
what a lie!
everyday i should be challenging myself to grow
to love more, to be more patient and less angry
to question less and allow God to just use me.
But i don't! i sit at the end of the day and write somethings in a notebook
and think ahh good job soph.
good job nothing!how many people did you show Jesus to today eh?You didn't even leave the house!
now i have nothing against duvet days
But when i stand a quivering wreck, a bundle of nerves and bursting with joy in front of Jesus i wana have more to say than, i spent a little time with you every day, and i painted my fingernails and toenails to match, so we sweet blud yea?
(wonder if I'll call Jesus blud.......doubt it (this is honestly where my mind goes!))
There are times of rest with God
seasons of chill the flip out
but even in that we are learning more about his character - all the time learning
Satan says, well done...it's all good!
If its all good God would have taken me home son so its obviously not 'all good' is it?!?!
how much do you wanna kick satan in the balls!
I don't think i have to ponder a theological dilemma a day..
that is not my point
just grow!
if its swearing 49 times instead of 50 then AMEN!
if its not giving a dirty look to that cow in the library even though she totally deserves it!awesome.
if its not calling her a cow on your blog...even better
if its relying more on my Saviour than yesterday cause my heart hurts..what more could i want.
its not about actively avoiding sin...or intentionally learning..although sometimes it is..
but when we run towards Jesus...not that run like when your being chased up the stairs..but the run when you've just necked a red bull and you're buzzin and your feet hit the pavement so hard...or if you crawl, tail between your legs and head hanging...
into our Fathers arms
he will teach us
about grace and sovereignty and peace
and sin happens....God loves us despite and inspite of it
no matter how many sin weights go on the sin side of my scales..it still is never heavier than his love...
his love doesn't even quiver..
'i already knew you were gonna do that when i died for you so settle down'
when we take our eyes off God
that's when we doubt and the theological issues seem to overwhelm us
at the end of the day it doesn't really matter
cause he loves you so much..and he wants to hear about your day and he wants to tell you about himself
let him
when my head is fit to burst and i go round and round and round in my thoughts then stop and remember that the almighty became a single cell that grew to a helpless baby and then a man...for me...
that's where you will find true contentment
basking in love that is challenging